Thursday, 29 October 2009

am I making a big deal out of nothing?

I'm sick of complaining about school, but I don't have any other things to talk about than that. As it takes all of my time. So here is a highlight of the week:

I don't know if it's normal and it could happen to everyone or I'm being a total drama queen. So here is the thing, On Sunday, my geography teacher came up to me before the class starts saying, 'Azza, can I talk to you after class? I have something to tell you.' I replied 'sure... inshallah*'. So, after class, I walked toward to her table wondering What's going on.. I kept asking my self, if I have done anything wrong, I mean, I participate at class, I do my homework, I'm working my ass off! Here's what happened,

Teacher: "sit down Azza. I have something to tell you and I hope it won't bother you." giving me a serious look.
Me:"It's alright, I'm listening" I said kindly.
Teacher:"are you having any family issues?"
Me:"Oh" I laughed nervously "no, I d-.." She entrapped me
Teacher:"It's alright Azza, I would love to help out and I know there are many girls are just like you.. Facing problems and can't speak out for themselves." At that moment I didn't know what to say, Like seriously.. My family have been so supportive.
Me:"No, everything is going great at home. my mom is supportive. I'm just under a lot of pressure lately" and then I asked, "Am I doing anything wrong?" I was confused.
Teacher:" No, it's just that I have noticed something in you, something different from the other girls."
Me: "really?... in a good way or bad?" Confused again
Teacher:" In a good way" She smiled then said "I want you to keep working hard as you're doing and double your efforts"
Me: "Inshallah" I smiled
Teacher: "I'll keep checking on you from time to time and also I'll ask the other teachers to keep an eye on you." I couldn't say anything.. We had a moment of silence for a while.. Awkward *rolls eyes* Then I said" grr, alright. Thank you.." and smiled.

Okay.. After school, I tried to remember what she said.. and I was trying to figure out what she meant about the whole thing. And then it hit me. Maybe this is like a motivation... She was trying to wake me up and keep me going and doing what I'm doing.. I don't know the reason behind the whole thing. and Why she picked me over the whole crowd.

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* Inshallah is an Arabic expression that means "God willing," or "if God wills it." It is a conjunction of the Arabic word for God (Allah) and the Arabic words for his will.

1 comment(s):

Amarant said...

This post reminds me of a similar story happened to me in uni.

I had a really great instructor, Dr. Dhafir Al Shanfari (I know he will probably not read this but I wrote it anyway).

I was a good student at his class but I did 2 things that were the total opposite of being a "good student". I skipped the 2 midterms!!

He did the same thing that teacher did with you. It changed me ...