Is it getting any better now?

I have been trying and I'm still trying to handle all the things I have done from the last few months. All the drama that happened to me last summer and working on my social life, and getting to my old life and how I used to enjoy every part of it. Now, I have noticed that I can't get it back again for several reasons. I don't want to complain about what's going on with me nor sound like a total drama queen. Everyone has their ups and downs, and I'm one of them.

Firstly, last summer, I was kind of person who wants to stay in her comfort zone. I was away from my friends - I rarely talk to them. I mean, everyone need a group of friends to hang out with and just have some fun. and now I have been working on reconnect with my friends that I haven't been hanging out with.

Secondly, School - always been an issue ... When school started I admit, I wasn't that ready and fully prepared as a 12th grader. instead I was freaking out on how am I going to mange this knowing that this year is the key to my future and to open doors I want by my effort and hard work. Even though, I knew all these facts, I messed up and I have missed a lot of things in my studies due to my laziness and me being totally reckless.
And that appeared in my work. That what made my teachers noticed. As well as my mother who is pushing and asking me to work harder than I do. I know that my mother has all the right to do that as it's my final year and all. But, the guilt is killing me and I have been really hard on my self. I took all the responsibility for those consciousness. I have already blaming myself for this. It's much harder than I thought it would be.

Lastly, I came up with some solutions that could help me get through this;
1. Time management.
2. Motivation.
3. Believing in myself.
4. Inspiration.
5. Faith.
6. Hope

xo